Our baby is due in less than four weeks, which means that we are getting near to the “the baby can come any day now” period of the pregnancy. Which is mildly terrifying.
Philippians 4:6-7 says, “Don’t be anxious about anything; rather, bring up all of your requests to God in your prayers and petitions, along with giving thanks. Then the peace of God that exceeds all understanding will keep your hearts and minds safe in Christ Jesus.”
I have read this passage many times, and each time it seems to apply to a different anxiety or worry in my life. When I read this passage yesterday, I definitely thought about our soon-to-arrive new baby.
It is very easy to tell someone, “Don’t be anxious, everything will be fine,” but it is much more difficult to actually believe that yourself. Of course, I know Emma and I will be good parents, and I’m not really worried about it all, but I have begun to experience the out-of-control nature of parenting that everyone keeps telling me to anticipate.
I have to keep telling myself, “Alex, you are not in control of this.” If you are like me, these are hard words to accept. There is nothing that I can do right now but to wait for this little baby to show up. We have prepared the nursery, installed car seats, and packed a hospital bag for the day of delivery. And yet, I keep running around the house asking myself, are we ready? What more can I do to prepare?
These words from Philippians have been the answer to those questions, recently. I can do nothing but pray and trust that God will bring me peace. Now, I’m sure I won’t have this much zen in a few weeks when I’m tending to a screaming newborn at4am. But, at least for today, this is sufficient to still my soul.
Anxiety is vicious, and it tears you apart over time. I pray that these words from Philippians bring peace and comfort to you as they have for me.
Have a wonderful week my friends,